"In His Eyes."

Friday. 11:07 am. 

Chowking Starmall Alabang.

After eating a bowl of Chao fan and drank a glass of water, I stayed for a while as I was waiting upon my Pastor’s reply in my text message due to an invalid account that he has given me to deposit a particular cheque. I was sitting on a two-chair-one-table side of this eatery when suddenly an old man sat in front of me adjacent to the position where I am sitting. He’s wearing a checkered black rusty polo with thick gray-colored jeans and blue colored rusty slippers. He’s just relaxed and composed when he sat down in front of my table. Others can notice that he’s old enough due to his wrinkled forehead and his crown of glory that shimmers like silk. It was just a typical set-up for me and that old man to eat on that fast food chain just to fill our hungry tummies.  But as I stared intently on that man, as one of the crews of the store had handed over a set of spoon and fork for Him because he was too slow to move to get it for Himself, these thoughts have quickly emerged on my head that even I became so startled when these thoughts had simultaneously came out in me and typed it on my phone.

I want to make my life count. I don’t want to waste every single moment that’s passing in me. The seconds that turns into minutes, which evolve into hours and eventually becoming days, weeks, months, years, and decades that quickly fades and passes by. I don’t want to let myself be stuck, kill time, and let it go without accomplishing something.

I want to make my life count. I want to be a vessel of the things that God has been imparted in me and share it to others so it can multiply and expand.

I want to make my life count by not repeating the same stakes and mistakes of those people that I know personally that even at this point of time are experiencing its repercussions and leaving them like helpless.

I want to live wiser. I want to make this life of mine lived at its fullest and take pleasure in it. I want to discern carefully and wisely every opportunity that God’s giving me every single day and do necessary and right things that I must do.

I want to make my life count with those people who know me and knows me deeply. I will always be committed to give my life and spend my time purposefully with my family, friends, and loved ones. I will always be open to receive help from others yet I‘ll see as well to it that I will never be a burden to anyone else. I want to sow more seeds of care, love and concern, serve them at the best way I know, respond unto them in the greatest way I know, that I may reap it eventually.

I will preserve myself - to live with character and integrity. For the sake of the people who love me, trust me, believes in me, and teaches me. And also, for the sake of the one who faithfully waits for me.

I don’t diminish the fact that the reality that I’m living can make me or break me. I know that this life and its challenges will become more fiercer, the battles will become more harder, the attacks will become more subtler, but knowing as well that greater is He who lives inside of me than he that is in the world, I will be more firmer, I will stand stronger, I will live wiser.

I want to make my life count with the blessings I receive right now and the blessings that I will receive in the future. That I may become a blessing to those who have blessed me and to bless whom God wants me to bless with. And the joy of giving; it just enlarges our hearts that we may be filled more with what God gives us in our lives ‘til it overflows.

So that when I reach my old age, I can say to myself and God as my witness that I really made my life accountable. That I lived this life significantly and letting it lived until eternity eats me up.

As that old man finished his meal, he also stayed for some minutes to let the food he had eaten fit in his stomach. I don’t know what His background is or the situation He’s going at that moment. I was just thinking why he has to eat alone with himself. Maybe he’s living alone. Probably, he just visited that store to reward his success and give remuneration in the efforts he has made that morning. Well, I hope that he has no regrets and he had attained the fulfillment he wants to achieve in life. And there he is, sitting with me, enjoying the meal he has paid and savoring the moment of tasting the sweet flavors of life.

Then he stood up, started to walk and left the store with contentment in his eyes.

Then after pondering these words in a span of ten minutes, I didn’t notice that my Pastor had replied.  That was a moment of isolation wherein I let my spirit recapped the desire and the purpose that I want to reach while I‘m strong and young.

Thanks to that old man. It prompted me a reminder to make decisive actions now that will start change in the course of my life that I‘ll be taking in the coming years and making it count and last to eternity.

Then, I stood up, started to walk and left the store with satisfaction in my eyes.