Why is it so that time flies so fast when you're busy doing something but so slow
when you wait for it? That's why i try to maintain my schedule blocked off everyday so
that I will not be bored. Well, at a certain point, I paused for a while and reflect what has
transpired in me 18 years ago that led me to a position where I am now today.
Being in the line of serving, meeting, and supplanting other people's needs wasn't
been a kind of ambition that I wanted to be in myself not even in my wildest dreams. Because
I didn't aspire, I didn't dream of something. I just want to be a person who will be naturally as
days goes by. Growing up being exposed at the frustrating reality of what this life can be
about since I was a child has led me to be dormant, and growing in a Christian family,
desired to have the hunger to learn and find the will and the purpose of God to happen
in my life.
Honestly speaking, having a heart, mind, soul, will and emotions, being directed
with these, I would want to just stay at my comfort zone. But God has dealt me in every
aspect of my life personally. Having those years of going through frustrations, discourage-
ments, sad realities, he made me realize that I should stand strong, I should endure the
pain, I should have the patience, because if not, I would have stayed so ignorant of under-
standing the good and bad things of life that it can possibly give to me. And God diverted
my focus from my weaknesses to His strengths. He made me realized that I am not the
only one who have gone through those things.
And He placed in my heart the burden, that there are others who are experiencing
worst situations than I, and I thought, how if I should be an answer for them. And He transformed
the perception of my mind to think of others. To think others first before myself. And it became
my outlet. Shifting the focus from myself to others. Through that, it became a diversion of my
mind when I'm doing something. And so, I don't soak myself anymore to the frustrating realities
of my situation but as I give my service to others, it unwinds me, giving a relief in me. And as
God reveals his self through his word, I discover His strength in me, and grants me the empo-
werment to do all things, through His grace.
At every time that I will give my service to others, what comes into my mind first is,
God is my ultimate audience, doing things with excellence should be of my concern because
I offer it to Him. Second is, if I will place my feet into their shoes, will I be satisfied if they will
do to me the things that are unnoteworthy? Having that in mind, I started to have the desire
to learn things in life that can be useful in my sphere of influence, so I can meet it, when no
one does it.
As God has given me the talents, the knowledge, and the wisdom that I've acquired
through the years, he made my heart so tender to His spirit and my mind to be guided through
Him. And my parents reminded me that the more knowledge that I acquire, the more that I
should humble myself, and make those applications applied not for my own gain but for the
benefit of helping others.
And in the area of desire God has preserved me that I don't settle for things that are
not significant. God has made me experience repeated deprivations of selfish desires for in
that thing, I will set my heart to do what is necessary to do and not according to what I want
to do. A choice that became so easy for me to accept because He has molded me and
prepared me through the years for in such time He will use me for His greater glory.
God has orchestrated things in my life before that I may be directed and respond to
live in the path of service. It takes my whole self to be forgotten (sometimes), in order that
others may be remembered. Which is where I get my satisfaction. I am satisfied if what I've
done to others made a great help for them or accomplishing things that became successful
and meaningful. And I don't want to be lifted up but they should thank God that he has used
me to supplant their need or such need that must be given has met.
I am still in progress.I do not say that I have arrived having those talents and wisdom
that I possess right now. I want to learn more, help others more, and know more of him. Oh, if I
could only express in words how does it feel. But even to myself it remains to me indescribable.
Being a steward of what God has entrusted to me comes more responsibility. And if
not by His grace that strengthens, preserves, and empowers me, I would have surrendered a
long time ago.
In conclusion, as another year starts in my life, I will exceed more to do what
I've been desired to be. That I will live a life not only of success but also of significance. For
having the notion that what you're doing is significant, applications of things learned,
endurance, success, and endurance, will naturally follow.
And to justify my title, just like an ant works, even though they are small, they do
things, even though unnoticed, are still purposeful and meaningful.
Knowing my labor in Him will not turn in vain, He will grant the desires of my heart.
And as I commit myself in the line of serving others, I will be reminded to live with humility
and servitude to others and offer my life to Him in the line of service in reckless abandon.
To God be the glory.
