That was a lesson hardly learned.
I lacked sharp discernment.
It was a mistake that really broke my world. Even my birthday essay became affected because of what had happened.
"Lord, forgive me for I trusted too fast.
I felt like I was really betrayed. A first encounter yet the way of betraying was done happened again for a second time around. Yet forgive them more for they know what they are doing and the consequences of their acts will never left unpunished by You. You said vengeance is Yours, You will make them repay.
I give it all unto you. I entrust it all unto You. All my worries, fears, and anxieties that really made me almost paralyzed. I will be more wiser than I've ever been before. And to the person whom I've inflicted so much damages, thank You for giving Him the understanding that cares. No words can amount how I feel so sorry about it. You may bless Him more, you would fill what was lost and restore what has been stolen.
And to me. Lord.
Help me to overcome this situation. I need your strength to be strong in this crucial, difficult times. I don't really know what do I have to do but I will just fix my eyes on You. I know that you are giving perfect peace to whose mind is stayed on You. Help me to start over again. Help me to regain what was lost. Help me to forgive myself. Help me to endure the pain and the consequences. Help me to fight and never lose sight of You. That I may be worthy again for your righteous cause.
I will just hope for your good things that you have prepared for me. I will just wait for the blessing to replace whatever that was lost. I know that there's something that's coming bigger and greater, even though I don't understand it, even though my mind can't fully comprehend it, I know you have a reason behind it. I will just hold on to your word. This will be an opportunity to see the demonstration of your goodness in my life like what you're doing unto me back then when circumstances and trials are going through my way.
Thank you that I am relieved by You. I ask that let your Spirit grant unto me the ability to discern things carefully that I will be protected and by Your wisdom that will give me light in everything that I will do. We may be afflicted yet You will deliver us from it all."
For now, it just a matter of rebuilding my world that was really shattered into pieces.
There's just only one thing that was taught to me and made me to be alert again.
And it awakened something inside of me.
But I can't remove the question as to why did it happened.
Then, by analyzing, I found the answer.
It all goes back to this reason.
I really lacked sharp discernment. That was an experience I will never forget. That experience had taught me something.
But sadly, that was a lesson hardly learned. :(
